My name is Louise Maria Wendela Ostrenius and this is my background:
Originaly I derive from the beautiful city of Gothenburg, but unfortunally I only lived there for about 3 weeks of my life. After that me and my parents moved to the lovely woods in Värmland and Karlstad became my hometown - the city where the sun always shines (; hehe. On our way there i learnd to sing my signature song: 74/75 - The Conells lol
I was happy while i lived in Karlstad.. or in the little suburb called Hammarö. It was quiet but fun, and i had a lot of friends to play with. And a cute little room with a antic desk and a big wardrobe which you could hide in while playing hide and seek! I had this really cute board around my walls; it had ducks on it! My best friends (the once i usually played with) was namned Elin, Matilda, Sara, Sofia, Hanna and Rebecka (+/- some).
I was in love with Nick Carter and his little brother Aaron and a biiiig fan of the Spice girls! We'd dress up as them and run around the house playing we were really good at dancing.. which i weren't i believe - but we still have some videos left... When I didn't listen to SG or BSB i looved Yellow Lemon Tree, you must know of this song right? Greatest ever.
I went to school, 1th - 3d grade, got a bit mischievous and cut a guys hair during class and got a huge scold. Well not that big but big enough. We arranged bazaars to collect money and had little parties were we danced until 10 o'clock ;) i loved it! One time a guy in a higher grade asked me to dance, i thought i'd die! He was pretty handsome! And then my friend asked him to dance after about 5minutes. That's life!
The summer before i was turning 9 my parents told me we were moving down to Skåne, because dad got a job there. I was thrilled at first but when it was time for the move, a couple of month later.. i couldn't stop crying. It was terrible to leave the beautiful mustard-yellow house with the great garden where we'd played "ninjas", "different-worlds" and built huts in. All my friends would miss me, and i'd miss them, alot! And the amazing forest just a couple of meters from our house! God, i loved playing there, catching lizards and climbing rocks (yes, i was a bit of a tomboy - loved dressing in my baggy shorts and a T (but i also loved dressing in cute little dresses that my grandma' sew for me and my little sister))
As we mooved down here we got a little house in Råå, down in the harbour. It was full of spiders and all i remember of it was when grandma' looked after me and my little sister one day and we ate pancakes with syrup and i got scared of the cellar! i believe i thought i saw something down there... it was pretty there, rly picturesque!
Then we moved to our real house, the one we still live in. Got a dog, cute cocker spaniel called Egon, he's a champion! Me and my little sister started school in Rydebäck. I got unbelievebly shy and almost never talked. I fell in love with a guy in my class, he had red hair and was very nice! But he didn't like me back. Years later he'd dated two of my best friends and went out with one of my enemies for almost 2,5 years!
I was pretty lonely during my younger years, and my class only had 5girls in it. We played football alot but i was never really intressted. I had one best friend but she could be awfully mean. We used to play horses or detectives and always run around fantazising about life or future and stuff, that's just how we were.
It wasn't until 5th grade where i found a really great friend. Well it didn't start that well.. A girl called Emelie who moved here from USA. We got to know eachother in the summer, but my best friend (who i mentioned before) took her away from me and they teamed up against me. Well, school started again and we fought quite a bit, then we all became friend instead. We had a blast, in most cases. We started playing basketball together! I still love that game (though it was a long time ago since i quit)! But something happened and soon it was only me and Emelie. We became the closest friends and went through EVERYTHING together! First kisses, first boyfriends, sneaky stories, first drunkenness etcetc... we shared everything!
In 7th grade we were a foursome: Emelie, me, Eric and Oskar = the tellitubbies! xD Then a girl named Jessica came and took both emelie and oskar from me.. Eric fell in love with emelie and in 8th grade it was only me who was single. I hated it! I felt so left out, and lonely.. It was so unfair, not just because they had bf/gf but that they were shutting me out!
Then when spring-term in 8th grade stared, a couple of ninthgraders came to our school. They'd moved here from another school. I saw him from the first day. He was amazing. Totally ME. I fell in love. I took 3 moth then we were dating. One more month and he loved me. It couln't get any better now! I was soooo happy. We did everything together. I still loved him when we broke up 1,5 years lter. And I still do..
During this time Emelies dad was very sick and we new what was coming. Still it came as a shock the day she called me at 7 o'clock telling me he'd past away. I cried and cried. Then i ran over to Emelies place. I stood beside her every second of this time, as i'd done all the time before it happend too. I didn't know what else to do. But i guess that wasn't enough..
Last couple of month in 9th grade was.. like it should be i guess. I didn't spend that much time with my old friends. Eveything was so wierd now that Filip and i had broken up and i guess i had slipped away from my old friends. I had fun though! Everything just.. passed by, flu right through me. I kinda miss it now.
The summer was spend mostly abroad. I couldn't stand being at home. I was a wreck. total mess. I visit greece, spain and england. I were on a konfirmation camp and travelled around sweden with new friends. And i spend some time with the ones i loved, my beloved friends and all that.. i just couldn't take all the change.. all at the same time.
I started first grade (gymnasium) @ Procivitas, one of Swedens greatest schools. I didn't quite fit in, not in my class anyways. I changed. It just got worse. It was a lot of pressure also. We always had to do GREAT on tests and it was a lot of studying, which im no good at. The school also has a lot of parties and other arrangements. Thats fun. You get to know eachother better by such think, thats what i believe!
In september i started dating this really cute guy, Adam. He was wonderful! Cute, sweet, nice, fun and really liked me! I was thrilled. Still i couln't get over Filip.. and i hated myself for that! we dated for more than a month.. then i really hurt him.. and i feel so bad for doing that. If i could i would do it all over again.. or try to fix it somehow.
I started seeing filip again. and he said he wanted me back. and i was so happy i didn't know what to do. We went out for 3 more month.. then we broke up.. again in January this year.
Now, im about to get started in my 2nd year on Procivitas. I got to know a couple of the most freakishly amazing youths this year, that I hang out with almost all the time, and i adore them! Their just Great! And I'm so happy I got to know them. What would I do without them..? I wonder.. My life is pretty much back on track and I try to develope and challenge myself everyday as much as possible! I want to be the person i see inside of me!
